Dry Eyes And The Omen Of A Cat Meowing In The Middle Of The Night

 

     I could sit in front of my desktop computer for hours and I would leave my chair without feeling anything in my eyes, but let me fiddle with my cell phone for an hour (like play an Android game) and my eyes would get dry (it gets red and will have sore-eyes like sensations; worst of it is the stingy mucus inside and around it). Once, when I  still wasn’t familiar with this affliction, I got carried away playing an Android game for many hours and my eyes went severely dry for days, I couldn’t sleep, using my phone would be torture, my eyes would feel so painful, like it was burning, at times that I got scared I’d go blind. I went sleepless for two days straight— two sleepless days are enough to give you hallucinations and suicidal thoughts— with my blood pressure drastically shooting up. I vomited, I felt nauseous all the time, and I couldn’t get off the bed.

     I bought this expensive eye drop and stayed away from my phone and computer, and fortunately, I recovered.

     Then I learned a way to get around it, using my smartphone for a long time without getting my eyes dry—take my eyes away from the phone’s screen every twenty minutes and rest them for at least a minute.

     But you know how some of these Android games can be addicting. Last week, the above-mentioned ordeal regarding my eyes was repeated. I got carried away killing zombies on my phone (from ten PM to wee hours of the night straight), and I woke up with the most painful pair of eyes. Again, I had a hard time sleeping (it’s not like I could easily fall asleep during those normal days). I went sleepless for the first day, barely slept on the second day. I didn’t have hallucinations or suicidal thoughts but after not experiencing it for a long time, I had a bout of terrifying sleep paralysis again on the second day—I dreamt of a black creature punching my eyes again and again and other small creatures biting and scratching my legs and feet while a gloomy voice kept repeating the line: “We will kill you!”

     I was thankfully awakened, and in those moments, while I lay alone in the dark almost sleepless, waiting for the eye drop to take effect, while I couldn’t fully open my eyes, while a cat meowed ominously outside my window, making me apprehensive that I’d re-experience sleep paralysis if I ever fell asleep again and would encounter murderous evil beings in my dream,  I irrationally got scared of going blind again.

     I tried sleeping in the morning or the afternoon, but the pain and the heat wouldn’t let me—I used the eye drop again, and stayed away from my smartphone and my PC the whole day, and fortunately, my eyes recovered again.

     Last night, the cat meowed again, but I thought it was just looking for a mate.